Although I swoon over fashion blogs and those bloggers Instagram accounts, I know that I could never be one.

Every once in a while, I'll get some inspiration and think about adding more fashion posts to my blog, but then I realize all of the reasons that I can't be a fashion blogger.

1. I hate being in front of the camera.
Even though I'm a photographer and I love taking portraits, I cannot stand being in front of the camera. I hate being the center of attention. So much so, that my husband and I didn't have a first dance or speeches at our wedding reception.

It might sound ridiculous, but I will offer to photograph almost any event that I'm a part of just so I don't have to be in front of the camera. Honestly, I think it all stems from my performance anxiety. Any time that I had a group project, I'd do all the work in return for not having to present the project in front of the class. Then anytime that I was forced to present, I spoke way too quickly and confused everyone.

There was one time in college when it was really bad. I was taking an online class that required an oral presentation. Each student had to write a paper and then present it in a youtube video for the rest of the class to critique. I was pretty sure this project was going to be the death of me. Each time I tried recording it, I would mess up. Eventually I got so frustrated that I turned off my camera, went to Publix, bought every dessert item imaginable, went home and stuffed my face. After a good binge session, I took one more take and then uploaded it without watching it first. That is how much I hate being in front of the camera.

2. I don't have nearly enough clothes or accessories. 
I might have a closet full of clothes, but they never get worn. I have maybe two weeks worth of outfits that I wear and that's probably overshooting it. I've got 10+ pairs of shoes, but I always wear the same ones; and I have boxes and boxes of jewelry that just sits there.

When it comes to clothes, I can be very hard to shop for. My weight and shape are always changing and I have very unusual measurements. My waist is considered a small, but I'm considered plus size. So in reality, 80% of the clothes in my closet don't actually fit.

As for my accessories, I'm just lazy. I have beautiful pieces from artists from all over the world, but I always wear the same things: wedding rings, black hair tie, one of two pairs of earrings, and the occasional necklace. I have a bunch of beautiful Coach and Michael Kors purses, but I'm too lazy to switch them out.

I'm the worst when it comes to shoes though. I've got shoes for every occasion: boots, flats, heels, etc. Of course, since i'm a creature of habit, I wear the same pair of shoes over and over and over again. They're black and silver, so they match everything! Almost everything that I own is a neutral color, right down to the accessories. That way, everything matches and I never really have to think about it.

I just don't know how fashion bloggers do it! I can't imagine any of my clothes being warn in all of the possible ways that fashion bloggers come up with. Once I come up with an outfit, that is exactly how I'll wear it for the rest of my life. I rarely mix and match pieces, because I just don't have enough to work with.

3. I rarely purchase anything new for myself.
Honestly, I don't know how fashion bloggers do it. Even if it weren't for my constant weight fluctuation, I really don't think that my shopping habits would change. I go on a little shopping haul once a year and I occasionally pick up a new sweater here and there, but I could never do what fashion bloggers do.

I've always been the kind of person that tries to save money on everything and I only buy what I need, so I rarely go shopping for myself. At this point in time, I don't see the point in wasting money. I know that I'll just gain or lose weight in the near future, so I don't want to buy something that isn't worth keeping. Even if if I stayed one consistent size, I still couldn't imagine spending money on myself. I'd rather spend it on someone else and on the rare occasion that I buy something for myself, it's either books or food :)

4. I don't get dressed up enough.
This is one of the biggest reasons that I could never be a fashion blogger: I just don't get dressed up enough!

Living with chronic illnesses isn't just difficult, but it's painful. So, it's imperative that I have clothes that are comfortable to wear. Most often, I dress in oversized tops and leggings or t-shirts and yoga pants. Realistically, what I wear just isn't worth photographing or blogging about.

While I would love to dress up more and show everything off, it just doesn't work for me. I know that there isn't a point to getting all dressed up in the morning if I'm not going anywhere, so I lounge around in comfy clothes instead. Lucky for me, there's no dress code in my living room!